A Conversation with Elizabeth
1999
Re: Ready for vacation

From:          Elizabeth 
To:            LMixson@PEC.com
Sent:          Thursday, December 16, 1999 2:02 PM
Subject:       Re: Ready for vacation
 
Sounds good to have an entire two weeks or so "off."  The trouble with school and work is even if I finish school, I still have work.  I've no plans currently to take off a big hunk of time.  Next term I have registered for a day class in Employment Law. I haven't asked my boss about being off for it, one afternoon a week, but to take the time off I would probably use vacation time, instead of trying to make up the four hours.  In that light, I'm being frugal about my vacation days, although I do have hundreds of hours.  I'm not in the mood to do anything or be with anyone, really, nor am I in the mood for a drive.  I just thought I'd put a "possibility" out on the table, without really knowing how I felt about it either, both the drive and or just getting together, which is complex.  If I go to UA next Fall, which I don't know yet, Dothan is a pretty far drive from there, because it adds at least two hours. If I'm here, its more possible. How is the relationship with the yoga instructor going?  Do you still see her?  I wasn't clear whether you "really" liked her or not, although now I do recall you said you and she agreed to "be friends."  I still have sort of a "thing" for the professor at school, although we have no contact to speak of. Lately he hasn't e-mailed, and I've mostly stopped, with school being out, so there is no "basis" to even think about him, but I find that I do. We had a really good after class talk a few weeks ago, about my application, and some odds and ends.  He's engaged,I think I told you, to the daughter of the President of the University.  Apparently they have been dating forever.  I sort of suspected the wedding might be soon, at or around the millenium--which would be a nice plan.  I really, really liked him.  I read a review about a book talking about how the "right" relationship can be "healing."  I sort of felt that possibility with him, although we certainly didn't get "personal" or very little, particularly as he is "so" professional.  In some ways, I think it makes me lonelier having become "interested" in him. I hated it when I found out he was "attached" strongly, although even before then, I'm sure any relationship wasn't even a possibility.  He is very "straight" and "churchy"--twice a week, etc., but he is one of the kindest, and I would also think gentlest, persons I have ever met.  He doesn't seem to ever have an "inconsiderateness" towards other people, but it seems to come so naturally, not like an act.  In contrast, when I look at myself, I sort of "barge around" and am not always alert to being considerate when I might be.
 
When I saw how quickly you took up with the yoga instructor, it sort of bothered me a little.  I think also in the back of my mind I had also wondered about us recontacting once you told me you and Julie were divorcing, but it was just a speculation.  Then I realized I had--let me just call it a crush--on this professor I'm talking about, so it all got confused.  I've been harsh with myself to "put him out of my mind" but I'm not able to.  I keep wanting to see him, or talk with him, but there is no way.  Plus, I have a class with him next term, which rules out anything to begin with, as he is most professionally minded.  Oh well.  I feel like I'm writing Dear Abby.  Maybe the vacation will help you adjust to being alone some, although you have said you don't like it that much.  Elizabeth

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