A Conversation with Elizabeth
1999
Re: Hello

From:          Elizabeth 
To:            LMixson@PEC.com
Sent:          Thursday, October 14, 1999 10:49 AM
Subject:       Re: Hello
 
Not doing too well.  Bad scene last night at law school.  A "friend" sort of snubbed me.  I called her about it--I was pretty upset because the context was all this about accreditation with the Dean.  Basically she said she didn't think it was a good idea to be seen with me because I had spoken out against the Dean at school.  I hung up on her when she said that.  Just before that though she said that they way I asked questions made her uncomfortable.  So after I hung up I called back and said, "Just one last thing--I've never in two years of law school in any class EVER seen you ask a question or volunteer to present."  Which is true--she never has.  I do ask questions and occasionally I volunteer--so I told her, "You just want to be safe and keep your image intact."  So she hung up on me.  When she first called, I was very upset--there was another meeting with the Dean about accreditation.  He started it by saying "he had heard" there were people being cynical and questioning.  He then said, "Those people are very selfish and self centered."  That made me angry all over again.  I told my "friend" I was thinking about dropping out.  I'm really upset.  Basically the Dean sort of set me up too-because he said "one thing which could ruin our chances at accreditation was people who have negative things to say about the school--the accreditation team might be here asking questions--and THOSE PEPOLE LIKE THAT could ruin us." I sort of thought there are MANY MANY other reasons why ruination could occur, besides one or two bad mouthing students.
 
But, it was rather pointed.  It was after this that "my friend" really really acted cool, but she was that way beforehand as well.  Oh well--I cried a lot last night, then woke up at 2:00 and sat studying for a while. 
 
I am thinking about "dropping out" instead of ONLY CONSIDERING dropping out if per chance I could get accepted at UA.  It TOO late for me to get any money back though.  I can still drop my classes (until about Nov. 15) but I'd have to still pay all my money (I pay by the month.) I think the thing that bothers me is that I really loved law school so much (notice the past tense) and I keep thinking, "here's one more thing I started and didn't finish."  I did get up early (I guess I stayed up early as I never went back to bed after 2:00) and went to the post office HOPING the package of materials from UA would be there.  IT WAS.  So that was a little bright spot.  I brought it into work and have been looking through it.  Well, your life seems sort of tame.  Are you happy, really happy?

So yet another person that Elizabeth had issues with, I sometimes wondered if she had any friends at all.  The thing is, she is almost always right in what she says, but she says it in a way that pisses people off.

Happiness