A Conversation with Elizabeth
1999
Re: Crushes

From:          Elizabeth 
To:            LMixson@PEC.com
Sent:          Friday, December 17, 1999 11:25 AM
Subject:       Re: Crushes
 
Right, I find it hard sometimes to interpret "messages" people might be sending me.  For example, my prof/friend and I exchanged some really serious e-mail about teaching, learning, even about having an e-mail "friendship" (which he labelled virtual) and then also our student-prof relationship.  Then, he seemed to just stop e-mailing.  At first I thought it was because we had been meeting a couple of times and talking in person and that maybe he actually preferred that to e-mail.  I "vowed" to stop e-mailing, but I rather enjoyed it, so I've sent a few messages--but infrequently--all of which he has not answered.  Then, though, recently we had this wonderful after class talk which was quite lengthy, and he seems/seemed warm, receptive, friendly.  I mean I saw "no sign" of "get lost."  That is the ONLY reason I went ahead and sent a few more e-mails, because I thought to myself that I was reacting to something which doesn't seem "right" when I see him in person. I guess I liked the e-mails because of isolation and boredom at work, the same reasons I enjoy hearing from you, plus I learn things, both from you and him. I e-mail a "secretary" friend of mine really regularly, but she--I don't exactly know how to put it--many of our interests are not the same.  She is married and has a totally different life than I have.  She doesn't go to movies, and seldom reads.  Oh well.  You got me interested in hiking Old Rag. I'm still in a piss ant mood.  I just looked through the paper on my break for "things I might like to do."  Do I want to go to the ANNUAL zoo lights festival--can't quite get into it, or the ANNUAL people Christmas tree--I don't think so.  I'm about to go crazy. 
 
Don't want to take off without any "real" plans, although I could certainly use the time in my apt.--but I don't want to go home and "clean."  My secretary friends gets off just like you today and doesn't have to go back until the 3rd.  One perk of a state job.  I'm actually about to go crazy and feel like "bolting."  Weather is getting cold, rainy, and bad though, probably tonight.  I don't know--does the yoga instructor--I guess she hasn't--ever invited you to do something, which fits her schedule.  My "prof" is most likely on vacation.  He's a big hunter, and could be taking advantage of his days off.  The profs don't have a great deal of time off either.  After finals, they have 100+ essay exams to grade, and then have to be ready to teach a new class come Jan. 3.  Of course, I envy the free time during the day.  Well, write if you can--I am so bored, and you seem to be one of the few contacts I have lately.  My job here is so isolated.  Elizabeth

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