A Conversation with
Elizabeth
2000
Routines
From:
Elizabeth
To:
LMixson@PEC.com
Sent: Tuesday,
March 7, 2000 9:20 AM
Subject: Routines
This morning I find myself thinking once again that what I don't like
about work in general is what I call routine. I begin feeling
programmed from outside. I just seem to reach a point where I don't want
to do what I'm supposed to be doing at the time I'm supposed to be doing
it. Its NOT that I don't want to work per se, its feeling
programmed. I just don't know how people do the same job for 20-30
years. I often think I would be in a better place in my life if I
would have joined the military or taught high school for 25 years.
I would now be retired with a pension. But, the reason I never did
those things is I wouldn't have ever done them. Many of the people
at law school are my age, but they are retired or retiring from the
military, with very nice pensions. I don't know if the way I feel is
because of THE job or just that I will begin to feel that way after a
while about any job. Perhaps there is just not enough "change of
scene" in my present job. I don't go to meetings, even within the
hospital. I certainly don't go to external meetings, etc.
That is why law school is so great though. Anyway, I found myself very
irritated on the bypass this morning.
This woman insisted on going well below the speed limit, hampering the
flow of traffic. She turned in at the state building which
explains everything.
I was also thinking that you never seem as anti-material as I am.
I was looking at a catalog this weekend and there was a dual coffee-tea
pot, one pot for each. I just sat staring it like "Why?" I've also
been thinking how all these SUVs in this town are so un-necessary.
The terrain or the weather doesn't require them. They are all
"show." The road looks like a military highway. Well, I
don't know how gas is up there--ours is always higher than elsewhere,
but its pushing 1.60 already. Not good for the SUVs. I
dropped a grade the other day. I'd been running a higher grade
because of the car being older. Oh well, I'm not in the best of
moods. The other day I really felt like I wanted to be camping
somewhere, or dining in a restaurant on the water. Elizabeth
Updated: 05-03-2024